Apparently I am shattered again.
Except this time it brings completely no inspiration for any form of art at all.
Rather than that, it's a will to go back to my old wasted self with endless nights of pills and alcohol and cigarettes and whatever else that is necessary.

Cheers.

Going through bad bad times.
I need therapy.

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YOUR BOY SIDE

(x) You love hoodies.
(x) You love jeans. (love is such a strong word.)
(x) Dogs are better than cats.
(x) It's hilarious when people get hurt. (of course!)
(x) You've played with/against boys on a team.
( ) Shopping is torture.
( ) Sad movies suck.
( ) You own an X-Box.
(x) Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid. (dinosaur toys ftw!)
( ) At some point in time you wanted to be a fire-fighter.
( ) You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
( ) You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
(x) You watch sports on TV.
(x) Gory movies are cool.
( ) You go to your dad for advice.
( ) You own like a trillion baseball caps.
( ) You like going to football games.
( ) You used to/do collect baseball cards.
(x) Baggy pants are cool to wear.
( ) It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
(x) Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours
(x) You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
( ) Sports are fun.
( ) Talk with food in your mouth.
(x) Wear boxers.


YOUR GIRL SIDE

( ) You wear lip gloss.
(x) You love to shop.
(x) You wear eyeliner.
(x) You have some of the same shirts in different colours.
(x) You wear the colour pink.
( ) Go to your mom for advice.
(x) You consider cheerleading a sport.
( ) You hate wearing the colour black.
(x) You like hanging out at the mall.
(x) You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
(x) You like wearing jewellery.
(x) Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
(x) Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies.
( ) You don't like the movie Star Wars.
(x) You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
(x) It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
( ) You smile a lot more than you should.
(x) You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
( ) You care about what you look like.
(x) You like wearing dresses when you can.
(x) You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
(x) You wear girl underwear.
(x) Used to play with dolls as little kid.
(x) Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
(x) Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

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Yay.
Apparently I've worked out some idea for this painting that I'm really pleased with.
And I used like 13 artworks on DA as reference.
Still waiting for reply.
And I need to get on with the painting.
It's taking forever.
Side, I'm out of shape and uninspired for photographs these days.
NEED to get back on track.
xo

My phone is lost.
On the way to school.
I came onto my schoolbus and realized my phone was gone by homeroom.
Despite all my effort; the somebody who has the phone would not return it.
There are alot of texts in it from important people that I'm never getting back.
I'm really upset.
...

PS: and broke too.

Update:
Due to the fact of being Underage, a few of my favourite submissions have been deleted, cheers.

I'm not exactly going through the best days of my life either.
But I'll try to get something productive out of it.